Baek: I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

의심 없이 편안하게 사랑하고 사랑받고 싶은 한 사람의 이야기 10년 넘게 기분부전장애(가벼운 우울 증상이 지속되는 상태)와 불안장애를 겪으며 정신과를 전전했던 저자와 정신과 전문의와의 12주간의 대화를 엮은 『죽고 싶지만 떡볶이는 먹고 싶어』. 지독히 우울하지도 행복하지도 않은 애매한 기분에 시달렸고, 이러한 감정들이 한 번에 일어날 수 있다는 사실을 알지 못해서 괴로웠던 저자는 2017년 잘 맞는 병원을 찾아 약물치료와 상담치료를 병행하고 있다. 이 책은 저자의 치료 기록을 담고 있다. 사적인 이야기가 가득하지만 어두운 감정만 풀어내기보다는 구체적인 상황을 통해 근본적인 원인을 찾고, 건강한 방향으로 나아가는 것에 중점을 두고 있다. 겉보기에는 멀쩡하지만 속은 곪아 있는 사람들, 불안 속에 하루하루를 버티고 있는 사람들에게 이제까지 간과하고 있었지만 본인으로부터 나오고 있을지 모를 또 다른 소리에 귀 기울여보게 한다.

It is Osaka in the 1930s. Kim Shunpei, a migrant from Jeju Island, works at a fish cake factory and is widely feared for his physical strength and brutality. He moves through life in the only way he knows how: by terrorizing those around him.A bestseller in Japan, this harrowing, kaleidoscopic novel portrays the violent and eventful life of a flawed man modeled after the author's own father.Publisher’s ReviewBlood and Bones, originally published in Japanese in 1998, follows a half-century of the violent, eventful life of migrant worker Kim Shunpei in Osaka. Feared by coworkers, bosses, neighbors, family members, and gangs alike, he moves through life in the only way he knows how: by terrorizing those around him. Yang Seok-il's vivid portrait of Kim Shunpei is modeled after the life of his own father. Built from intimate memories of struggle in the gritty underbelly of Osaka, Yang's harrowing, kaleidoscopic novel depicts how patriarchal violence and restricted life chances can wrack a minority Korean community both during and after Japan's empire.About the AuthorYang Seok-il (b. 1936- )Born in Osaka, Japan, to a couple from Korea’s Jeju Island who settled in Japan during the Japanese occupation of the Korean Peninsula, Yang, whose Japanese name is Yan Sogiru, graduated from Osaka Prefectural Kozu High School and did odd jobs including driving a taxi after a business he pursued failed. His 1980s non-fiction work Takushi doraiba nisshi (Taxi Driver Diary), based on his experience as a cabbie, was made into the 1993 critically acclaimed film All under the Moon. He also won the 1998 Yamamoto Shugoro Prize of Japan for his semi-autobiographical novel Blood and Bones, which was also made into a film released in 2004.About the TranslatorAdhy Kim is a writer, scholar, and teacher of Asian and Asian American literature and culture.ContentsBlood and Bones 2Chapter 14Chapter 15Chapter 16Chapter 17Chapter 18Chapter 19Chapter 20Chapter 21Chapter 22Chapter 23Chapter 24Chapter 25Chapter 26